When Live is Live, and Why Live Matters

Lydia Diamond's adaptation for the stage
of Toni Morison's first novel.

My partner and creative collaborator and I ventured back into the world this weekend, taking in a live concert and two live theatrical productions. Huzzah! Each was magnificent. Our souls, our skins, our beings vibrated with the songs and words of others.

Let's talk for a moment about the power of "we all breathe the same air."

Let's let out a sigh of relief for the ability to do this safely, and for those who have ensure that: the scientists and their vaccines, the Biden administration and its focus on distribution and relief.

Let's humble ourselves -- just for a moment! -- in the sweet, anti-American mythology that each of us as individuals does NOT exist in our own pod of self-sufficient, bootstrapped being, but rather is dependent upon everyone before us and around us for who we are.

COVID, a potent symbol of this dependence, remains out there and we still want to reduce and halt community transmission and the variants it allows to develop.

We also want to heal the damage caused by social isolation.

We want to heal the damage to our hearts and souls by two years not experiencing live art together.

A fascinating new play at the
Central Square
Theater in Cambridge.

With luck, the pandemic has caused more U.S. residents to be aware of the elemental, crucial role live performance plays in our hearts, minds, souls and communities: in our shared humanity.

Truly, our crisis in culture -- the arts and humanities -- had been already building steadily in this country for decades pre-pandemic. TV's and even radios beamed entertainment directly to our homes long before the internet, eroding our need to venture into the dangers of the public domain.

Yet the performing arts, unlike TV, are not "just entertainment." When we are live in a room with others, we are not merely on a one-way road, consuming what is transmitted to us; or even in a two-way or multiple player super highway of electronic gaming. We are exchanging breath with the performers and other audience members. We are participating in the creation of that performance and experience.

The Isabella Stewart Gardner
Museum: the privilege of 
creating one's personal abode as
lavish performance-art-to-be-
experienced.

In fact, the role culture plays in our continuous development as human beings is a happy "withdrawal from utility," a delightful counter to the increasing transactionality and monetization of all things in our society: "art and thought are forms of activity that have no immediate end." (1) This is, of course, also why a liberal arts education is such important preparation (i.e., not "training) for the world of work and citizenship -- but that is a separate post.

I'll close this one by further referencing my "main woman" of political theory and philosophy, Hannah Arendt. In her essay, "The Crisis in Culture" (1968), Arendt argues that art is political: not in the ways it might speak directly to social justice and change but precisely because it is not a commodity and therefore requires us to gather in the commons where we must accommodate the perspectives of others.

More on the importance of "the commons" -- or the polis -- anon.

#ArtNotEntertainment

#StopConsuming

1. Julia Reinhard Lupton (2014) Hannah Arendt and the Crisis of the Humanities?, Political Theology, 15:4, 287-289, DOI:  10.1179/1462317X14Z.00000000085

My Life as a CNA #4: Our Fascinating Stories

Like many of you, I've become a little obsessed over the last few years with the mysteries presented by DNA connections and expanding Ancestry family trees. Like an Advent calendar, the little square photos of the digital tree open into unexpected narratives. There's so much we do not know even about those genetically related to us. Even those just a single generation removed.

And of course for me the mystery is doubled by my adoption. So I've got two trees going, with multiple collaborators: my beloved family of adoption, and the far more mysterious French-Canadian immigrants for whom I can thank my genes.

But the truth is the folx to whom we are actually related are only one surface of our multifaceted, glittering stories. I've yet to meet a single human whose story doesn't surprise and fascinate me. 

On my last day of clinicals at the hospital.
I'd just successfully fetched and learned how
and why to operate this Bladderscan machine.

Stories are one of the especially great aspects of being a nursing assistant. CNA life could, I guess, be called the opposite of glamorous (as many of you have pointed out in emphasizing it was fine for you as an entry-level teenager, but good to leave in that youthful past!) or well-rewarded. What CNA life IS is skilled -- the more you know about human psychology and the body, the better off you and all your residents will be -- AND an on-the-ground, direct caretaking profession that most often serves those with the least among us: the increasing number of U.S. citizens with dementia and its related diseases who end up in long-term residential care centers (i.e., nursing homes) because that is what our government safety net of Medicare and Medicaid will pay for.

My mom and...not my dad.
An unnamed soldier.

How we grow old and die is, sadly, very much about economics: which perhaps offers a more humane rationale on our "run-for-the-riches" U.S. dominant culture? I'm not going to conjecture further on this here; but I do know that everyone deserves to age and die with dignity which, for a majority of people, would be in their own homes. But that's not often how it comes down if you get to the end of your life with limited resources; and as 55 million Baby Boomers are expected to be diagnosed with some sort of dementia over the next 20 years.

As nursing assistants, we get to spend more time than any other professional with residents as we assist in feeding, toileting, bathing, grooming, ambulating -- and listening, and storytelling. The majority of folx in our care have been through many decades filled with experiences: childbirth, the deaths of spouses and children, school, travel, work, the challenges and diseases and traumas of poverty, sexism, racism, homophobia and more. Each one has a unique story so that by the end of every shift I feel I've been living in a new patchwork quilt of colorful, intriguing lives.

H. is 94 and tough as nails with the staff. But she looks like my grandma, and she is sweetly gruff with me. Her next door neighbor suffers from schizophrenia and bites and kicks and...is the staff favorite. Across the hall is a woman who has lived for 40 years off the grid and is now subject to the constant background noise of TV. In the skilled nursing wing, a man on hospice remains a voracious reader and paints images of lobster boats. His neighbor, only 66, is a former half-miler and confined to a racing wheelchair with early onset Parkinson's. On another wing is a 54-year-old disabled by obesity and a stroke who tells me, repeatedly, how difficult aging is (I didn't tell her my own age!). She's ended up here as a result of nowhere else to go and no way to care for herself; and is pretty mean with the staff out of her own lack of agency.

They are all (including the mean and desperate 54-year-old) fascinating. I adore them all. And the stories of their lives, and how those shape their current responses and choices, enrich me with every shift.

#CNALife

#caretaker

#mysteries

#storytelling